WEARING NOTHING (IN PARTICULAR)

I want to wear something that

expresses nothing, in particular,

suggests nothing, in particular,

and defines nothing, in particular. 

Can a piece of clothing refrain 

from embellishing style, genre, or image?

De-Emphasize the particular?

What sort of fabric, color, and design

is not 'particular? I want a 'fit' that won't try

to hide, describe or convey.

What might entice the mirror to reflect ‘NOTHING’?  

How accurate is a mirror when it only offers

an endless series of "SOMETHINGS"?  

Do we notice the fissure this creates? 

The way it ruptures the unruffled surface 

of tranquil absence?

How Illusion wrinkles innate Presence 

and populates    E m p t y   S t i l l n e s s  

with hallicunations?

When clothing continues to promote 

an image, where none is sought, wanted, 

helpful, or true—then what? 

It's quite tempting to seek stuff that blends in 

or find clothing that broadcasts bulletins like:

“Ignore this person—‘she’ isn’t really here anyway

please look elsewhere if seeking someone

who’s anything at all.” 

But I know that’s not ‘it’ either. 

What  ‘IT’  is, 

I do not know.

I only know that NOTHING inside my closet ‘feels right’ 

and the very idea of “right” fails to fit anything I try on.

There’s a sense of ‘no not quite that...' But

no reason why ‘this sense’ is so. 

It just is.

I keep scanning for another sense;

One of ‘Yes, this will do.’  Some sign 

that such signals might exist. Confirmation

that IT can inhabit every smidgen of Beingness.

How long must I wonder? 

Meanwhile, what do I wear ?

Stephanie Laura